dAm EuN zAPhArEtH

    Imagine a
body of water, flowing smoothly, very smoothly, Suddenly, it reaches a
cliff and plunge deep into the abyss forming a waterfall..Then it
continues its journey and flows smoothly again..sounds melodramatic to
you??

   Well,
to me it really does gave me an enormous impact in my life and without me realizing
it, I have spent the whole of my 1 week sem break holiday at my friends house
in Kelantan.. As usual, my very 1^st impression towards the state was
undeveloped, bored place to spend my holidays (as you all know that there isn’t
any shopping complexes as well as entertainment & theme parks there),
insufficient facilities and the list goes on… I anticipated my holidays would
be bored at there, but…my anticipation collapsed upon me to prove me wrong….

As I
marvel upon the 1^st day I arrive there  on Wednesday, I was stunned with the exhilarating scenery
there although there is just trees and mountains with some undeveloped building
on my left and right as I was in the car heading to my friends house in Kuala
Kerai…no doubt I was kinda a lil uncomfortable with the “kampungly” life style
there…but…time makes me realize the beauty of Kelantan..Together with the warm
welcome handed to me when I arrive on my friends house (Lee San & Lee Wei)
together with their family members…I was treated as if I was part of their
family regardless of who I m… The house is always filled wit joy and laughter
and it really makes me feel like home…the same feeling , the comfort where you
can only feel when you ‘re at your home….

My
days spent there was terrific with outings with my friends (Lee San, Lee Wei, Yi Siang, Kit Mang) especially the trip to Kota Bharu …it takes roughly bout
an hour drive there…I get to meet my bro who is studying Kubang Kerian, USM
there..he was delighted when he met me and we have our lunch as well as our
brotherly talk there…kekekek….he really looks kinda stress up and I really pity
him..haiz..after that, we went visiting Yi Siang’s aunt, Pantai Cahaya Bulan
and KB Mall…wakakakak…the beach at PCB was great and fantastic..its view there
was exhilarating together with the cool and strong breeze…I really had fun
there…and also the KB mall…it looks more like Melaka Mahkota Parade..

Besides
that, I also go places such as the Kuala Kerai Town, the tasik there area , the
list goes on…Well, I also manage to taste Kelantan famous food such as the Nasi
Kerabu(cawjum) & Nasi Dagang, the fried bee, the eel cook with curry, tom
yam seafood, and all sorts of keropok…newazzz…its so cool and nice…btw,at 1^st
I thought Kelantan dint sell pork rice because I thought it’s a muslim
state..but..i was wrong…wakakaka.,,…I manage to savour the famous pork rice
there…yummy…wakakak..together with Lee San’s mom cooking…seriously, her mom is
really a great cook with lots of luxurious dishes…lolz… I really miss the pork
cook with herbs… wish I could try it again… if there is no obstacles goes
against me…

My
hand now kinda very tired after writing this as I dint manage to have a proper
sleep during my trip back home from Kelantan to Kl by train…only manage to
sleep 5 hours as I was very uncomfortable with the bed on the train…last but
not least, I m really grateful towards Lee San & Lee Wei with their family
for making me feel so comfortable staying at their house and also for having me
as part of their family…Especially her mom and dad for treating me very well
and makes me feel like home..thanks!!not to forget also my 2 friends (Yi Siang
& Kit Mang) for spending their time wit me to make my holiday in Kelantan
an enjoyable one…I shall not forget the sweet memories in Kelantan and this memories
will I treasured for the rest of my life…THANKS!!!!

Have you ever come across words that gave you a special tingling sensation when you read them ? Words like love , hope , passion , life , and destiny that you could never really comprehend nor explain?

In life , I came across many such words as I ‘ m in the process of discovering the meaning of life . In the midst , after 5 month in pursuing my higher education in TAR college , I finally found a very common yet meaningful word that I simply could not neglect – a word that expounded me . I accepted the truth of the word with oneness of heart and in that glorious moment , I made it as the word that lit my world and life in KL!!

“”FRIENDSHIP””

Time really flies huh?? I could hardly believe and imagine that its been 5 months I’ve been at TAR college without noticing that semester 1 is already over. I still could vividly remember at the very 1^st day I reach at TAR college…full with determination, enthusiasm, and also hope in everyone eyes including me myself…all of us arrive there wit different backgrounds and characteristic, yet 1 same goal…to excel and succeed in our life…then , its was also the time I truly understand the meaning of friendship…this unforgettable experience is when I joined the DAC 1 (B) group 18 class of accounting…when I 1^st step into the class, I could feel like I m stepping into a world full with strangers regardless of their race, backgrounds and characteristics too…..inferiority binded and as well blinded me as I’m always with the stereotype assumption on my head that this the students in TAR college is not friendly and they are Chinese education, which means they could only communicate Chinese…but…I was wrong…..all my assumptions and negative thoughts comes crumbling and falling apart when they are very friendly and also amicable…I still could remember, the very 1^st friend I have is from KELANTAN…they are utmost helpful and never fails to deliver help when I m in trouble…

Not also forgetting my other friends whom are also very friendly, helpful , and “setia kawan”is their tag all the time….I can never forget all of you even if I am pursuing my studies at other colleges….my KEPONG (SPYDER) gang, SARAWAK gang of girls, SEREMBAN gang of girls, EPOH girl, KL (cheras & etc) , the crazy 3 stooges (MC, CL , & YS) , PENANG tai ka cheh (more specific :long jie)….and also others…very sorry if I didn’t list your groups or name in my blog…very very sorry because there are too many of you all in the class…I ‘m having some kind of short term memory…my brain I think have to perform more disk caching to improve my brain efficiency….kekeke…mean no offence….

By the way…I felt I have left someone…but…I jus couldn’t  remember….ermmmm….AHA!!!how can I forget my class rep???kekeke…the most garang & ganas person in group 18..YVONNE YANG EE WAN!!!!!wakakakaka…do you know that one of the cause of the noise pollution in group 18 is partly because of the shouting and life threatening by our very own class rep…kekeke…always trying to condemn my Chinese saying that its lousy and terrible…oMg…plzzzz…look at yourself…your Chinese is none better than mine, or it is worse…ok…mean no offence….btw ,besides looking at the dark side of hers ,lets search for the bright side of hers…well…I really hate to admit this. But she really deserve this….she is one hell of a very kind class rep, with her additional positive characteristic…being a pedantic ,resilient , and assertive girl in our class…besides that, she also possesses very strong determination heart and she is one of the whiz kid in my class too…always scoring an average of 80% and above in my class which makes her one of the top student in my class….hish…me damn jealous…..not to forget…she is also a peace maker and we never fail to seek reconcilation from her if we ever encountered any problem…from studies problem till love problem, we always seek for her help…that’s why, some say “ada problem cari Yvonne..gerenti beres mia”…wakakaka..with all her positive and negative characteristic, which makes her the most perfect class rep that we ever have…no wonder all of the members in group 18 love her…wakakakakaka

Okla

…I now kinda sleepy, feeling half dead as I sleep very late jus now…typing all this with all my might…jus to prove that group 18 is a good class…well…i wrote all this things but you guys and gurls get the credit…newazzz…never mind le…btw, I jus want to say that…even if I leave TAR college…I shall never ever forget what happen here..the friends that I gained…all the pain and suffer that we endured together , shall be in my memory forever…the sweet memories in class, lecture hall, canteen where we eat together esp the BBQ nite ,will I treasure and preserve it in my heart…the good old times we have together will I frame at the top of my heart….last but not least…if I ever hurt all of you guys and gurls feelings by mere thoughts, words or action…please forgive me and all the harsh and offensive words that I have unleashed on you all shall I retrench back…now, with the sincerity from the bottom of my heart…I wish all of you members of group 18,good luck in your 2^nd semester and may god bless all of you ,not only now, tomorrow, and forever….if all of you didn’t se me in the 2^nd semester at TAR college….pandai-pandai la…..you all know I die go where adi k???if there is luck in me, hope to meet all of you again in future…chiozzz….

P/s:I not sure changing college…kekke…dun worry..mostly likely not changing adi…

   Well….First and foremost…I would like to apologise to my classmate in DAC(1) B Group 18  for not informing you all earlier regarding my change of class from group 18 to group 22…Besides that…i would also like to apologise to you guys & gurls esp YANG EE WAN the only ONE best class rep that always quarrel & shout at me and also the others such as pei chey,and etc…Seriously..i really dont mean what i say and very very sorry for the harsh words unleashed towards you all together with the teasing and the critism…Very very sorry…Hope you all can forgive me…

     Anyway..my life in the new class is not as fun as before as very little fun can be redeemed from that class..the class was like very reserve and kinda silent the atmosphere in there which make the class as the perfect place to sleep..haih….unlike our former class that is group 18…you can always hear the class rep with her tiny body shouting and screaming her lungs out to ask everyone in the class to pay this money n that money..hahahah,,really pity her..bt she is really very efficient and reliable class rep…respect her….i salute…some more with the jokes cracked by two tribes…one is the lun ping & ken lim gang..the other one is chai ling,yong shen and meng chun…wah…with this two tribes..the class always burst into laughter including our IA & ENGLISH teacher..whereas the group 22,yes….there are some whom crack jokes to lift up the class but no avail..no one was laughing at the particular joke and he was laughing all by himself..pity him..it was like damn lame shit lo the jokes..haih..sorry la group 22..your joke very lame…

      btw,my life at my ex group also being coloured by my close frens at there..such as Yi Siang whom always wanna KAO EVON,Chee Lin,Chen Siong, & Zhao Han..the most hardworking boy in the class..seriously lo..i was really amazed with his attentiveness in class and the power of his concentration..I RESPECT YOU!!!

        Besides that,thr is also a large group of gurls in class which majority of them are from

SARAWAK

...cool ryt??Gt sarawakian in my class…At the 1st day,when they intro themselves who they are n whr they come from,i was stunned with the number of sarawakians in the class..i feel like i wanna i say i come from

SABAH

..bt,seriously lo..they really rock in class and their fashion is as cool as who they are..no regrets knowing them and this group is lead by our one & only one…CATHAVRIL with Yi Er!!leader and assistant of that gurls gang…they speak english also gt slang wan and this group of sarawakians alws crack jokes..this group of gurls really fun and they love to joke around together with Lun Ping & Ken Lim at the back of the class…cool jokes..not lame…hahahahah..and also the others that is Yurie,KiKee,Pei Chey,& one more cute gal which belongs to the class rep gang..setia kawan is their tag as they always help the class rep to deal with the notes giving and etc.."a friend in need is a friend indeed…the class rep doesnt know how lucky is she..bt the class rep deserve assistant as i feel her job is tiring..

      Besides that,my english teacher..miss himalah,bIta miss chew koh sin,BS Mr Wong Kok Yong,ME miss Chin Mui Yin are really very good as well as dedicated teacher in my ex class..their guidance as well as their advice shall i keep till the end of my life..Not forgetting my coolest teacher which is the IA teacher,Miss Lim Mei Ean..wow..teacher you re the best..teacher next time i go to class and fan you so you wont feel hot when u enter the class k??pity our IA teacher..alws complain hot when enter our class..hahahhaha..really cute man our teacher..good bye teacher..hope you will be my teacher in the next semester…..thank you very much for everything..

   Last but not least..i would like to thank everyone that is mention above as they have carve a big smile on my face endlessly..thanks for making my life enjoyable as well as complete..i sure will miss ya guys & gurls..hope ya still remember me as well as talk to me when we casually meet at anywhere esp lecture hall…i m reliable 24 hours as ur fren…farewell guys & gurls in DAC(1) Group 18..THAKS FOR MAKING MY LIFE COMPLETE…..YOU GUYS & GURLS ROCK!!THE CLASS REP ALSO ROCK!!!!cheers and adious…..

    Have you ever been called a freak or labelled as a freak by  your friends before??Do you feel hurt nor degraded by such review unleashed by your friends towards you??Yes..I have been labelled as a freak numerous times regardless when and where i go..But…i don’t feel hurt nor degraded with such comments as i m just trying to be myself…Do you know that i face many obstacles and challenge lots of boundaries before discovering myself??Believing and having faith in myself so i can go on with life independently and courageously without doubting what i do nor stammer before talking to you..

       Is it wrong for me to be just me,myself and i??I m just trying to be myself so that i m nt faking it out when i mixing with you all like what others did by deceiving people with their innocent and decent looks..but deep in their heart,they are lavish people committing insolent act….Is honesty that i ve been contributing to all of you guys and gurls all this while is bothering you all and sickens you??I m just trying to tell you the truth and might be sometimes trying my very best to correct your mistake so you don’t repeat the same particular mistake in future and then falter in life..My sarcasm is only unleashed towards people whom refuse to understand and pretends to be numb and dumb for what i ve said..But…why do you all still labelled or called me a freak??Is it because the way i look??The way i dress???The way i study??Or the way i behave or potrays myself in public???NO!!Its just because of the particular damn thing..My sarcasm that has hurt many people with unidentified figure or amount…Do you all notice that before i unleashed those words,i tend to talk to you all nicely and being polite??Its just some bloody idiots that refuse to mark my words and make my life complicated…

         So there they have it…And thats why i m always bringing this tag "FREAK" to whenever and wherever i go..I have been going on with this life since schooling days..and now its already over…but i really never expect to carry along this tag as it really burdens me…Why freak????Why me???Isnt the word sarcastic is supposedly to be my tag not freak??What is the difference between sarcastic and freak??Can anyone drive all your courage and tell me???I m now in total darkness now and currently clueless as i m now still not knowing where i m heading to without even a single spark of light to guide me..I m really in the verge of confusion now..Can anyone help me??I think now,in the mean tym,its better for me to pretend like a dumb ass in class…NAHhhhhh!!!!!to every where i go……   

       Btw,sorry cathavril if i hurted you by mere words or action…Seriously,i wasn’t talking bout you nor criticising you…I SWEAR i dint talk bout you a single bit..i hope you will understand what i m facing…Cathavril,remember…”first comes trust,then comes friends”…Friends forever…

  Well wat can i say bout da city tat is so well established as well as modernized compared to other state in Malaysia..Everyone especially the KL citizens as well as our politicans seems to be very proud n have a very good impression bout tis estatic city..LRT,sky scrapper building as tall as 30 ft,KLCC,Petronas Twin Tower,KTM n etc which other states does not have…but as a matter of fact life in KL is a very fast movin pace life and it is very hectic as people tends to have tis kind of 3T sikap tat is "tak apa","tak bertanggungjawab"&"tak berbudi bahasa".speakin through experience,i my self indure tis kind of ruthless life style for da past 1 month & have been trying to adapt to this kind of new life style..Life in Malacca is totally different and it is far better than KL..no doubt Malacca might nt have cool n luxurious shopping complexes,fast movin LRT’s,and etc..but it nvr proves Malaccaas a nt interestin state..everythin has it pro’s and con’s..okie..thr was once whr i am at Masid Jamek area,i was waitin outside this shoplots selling various kind of food..Tat day was drizzling and i took shelter at this shop..Suddenly,thr was tis animal/beast(guy) just pull me inside da shop and ask me to sit down and place my order..I was like stunned for a moment of tym as i dint want to eat anythin in thr..So i replyed the guy by saying "tak mahu"..he insisted and keep on pullin da chair and ask me to sit down and ask "mau makan apa?minum?"…bloody fool!!!wtf!!!i was wonderin whether is this guy dumb & numb o a sickening idiot which refuse to understand..i rejected him and you noe wat he do?he goes shoutin and yelling at me like being possesed by some kind of demon witch saying "kalau tak mahu makan jangan diri luar larr!!buat menyibuk sahaja!!"..wtf#@%$@%!!lawe,can u put urself in my shoe and imagine how embarassed i was…I feel like slamming him on da spot but,tat was not my place..i m currently in a city which i knew no one except myself..So i jus walk away like a dumb asshole..haih..1st day,1st experience,bt a bad wan..let say la they can treat us local people like this,can you imagine how they treat da tourist…No wonder KL is one of the city that has the highest rate of rude ppl in the world…"1st world technology,bt 3rd world mentality"..too bad..thats why KL is never a successful city although it has various entertainment thr..So,in conclusion staying in KL is near to hell!!Thats why i always feel hot here..hahahaha..sweat…